I swear I have ESPN…..I could tell something was up with Jeffrey and sure enough I was right. I just wrote yesterday about what I felt and I was right. He met someone else. It was nice that he told me after I wondered what happened. I guess I will give him credit there. I really don’t take things personally. I know I’m a great catch, but if it doesn’t work for someone…….I can’t make someone love me. They can’t make me love them. Well, maybe I’m wrong there! I sort of enjoy the alpha male stuff. I have no problem with men being men, for the most part anyway. I guess he gets the erase from contacts from my cell phone. Onward! It creates space for somenone who will love me the way I should be loved. His loss. : ) No more blogs about him.

I’m so excited today. My website has made some changes, not that you will really notice much that is different yet, but maybe in the future you might. I get to see some cool stuff going on in the back end of things. My web guy, Michael is so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! He has helped me so much and I can’t thank him enough. He has great ideas and if I ever have any questions or ideas, he is right there to guide me through the whole process. I have never met him, but he holds a spot in my heart. I have felt lost a few times in this whole process of having a website and what it takes to be successful with one. He is the one who got me to Blog! I never ever thought I would be blogging like I am now. Thank you so much Michael. He lives in California and I hope to one day take him out to dinner when he visits Denver. His wonderful daughter Courtney, lives in Denver so I know he has to travel here sometimes. You better contact me when you do Michael!

I might go out on a motorcycle ride or bicycle ride today. It’s really cloudy and chilly, so I might just take a day off. I really haven’t had a day off like this in a long time. It feels so good! Shelby is in Texas and here I am writing.

I just had a call for a book that will come out with lots of info about my high school and my friends that I knew. They wanted me to pick one job, out of the two I have to put in there, so I picked the rock star one….being a ranch and cowboy photographer. It’s such a cool job to have.

Tomorrow I will be making some money taking photos. Love that!!! Rare! I need to sell some photos. I am sending out a few for Christmas presents. I really am going to focus the next two years trying to get this book about San Luis going. We shall see how that goes. I really hope to make that happen. I think “J” will be a great help, in fact I don’t think I could do it without him. I love that guy!

I’ll write more tonight maybe. I have a lot on my mind. Cheers and keep reading……

Ok, here I sit on Monday night, where I could have sworn I was going to have a date with Jeffrey. I hadn’t heard from him in a few days and I sent a simple joking text to see if he had forgot about me. He told me he was guiding for a hunt and that he would call me when he got home. I just checked to see if he was home, and it seems that he is …..cause I just checked his status on Match.com and he has checked his account/profile and no word still. Maybe he took what I said the wrong way or maybe he met someone else, but I could have sworn we had talked about going out tonight. Hmm! That is how it goes on Match. It is so difficult to meet a great guy on there it seems. Lots of games etc.

Juan texted me and asked me what I wasn’t talking to him about, after he read my blog??? I’m not sure what he is talking about. In my blog world I write about what I’m doing and what is going on in my life, and along with that there is much I don’t write about, that would be interesting, but more personal. I’m not sure what blog he is even talking about. I write on here so much.

It seems men want my sole attention, but I’m SINGLE!!!! What am I supposed to do???? I’m trying my hardest to try and find love, elusive as it my be for me.

I haven’t heard from William either. His daughters are in town, so I sort of expect that.

I just don’t know if Jeffrey took me seriously when I sent that text to him. He seemed interested, but what do I know? I just don’t understand men, I guess that is why I’m still single. Maybe there aren’t any great guys out there. Like I said “What the ****” I just don’t get it. Here I am totally free this week and here I sit blogging. Who would have thought?????

Tomorrow changed a bit. I had already canceled my volunteer work, to pick up my Dad after his eye surgery, but my Mom decided she was just going to wait for him. Now I think I will be having a date night with myselfish tomorrow. I want to go see an Indy Film called “Slumdog Millionaire” It’s supposed to be very good, and hey, I love myself, so time for a date alone with myself. Damn!

My website will be changing soon. It will start having ads on it. I also have some stuff going on behind the scenes…..(the back end of my profile) Should be some cool stuff for me to play with and check out.

Oh, I heard from an old friend today. John….I sort of dated him for a bit. He has the most awesome kid, next to mine of course. He is a ER doc. Totally got me into motocross and motocross photography, since he has a business of taking care of motocross kids who have wrecked on a course. He is amazing at what he does. I have seen him at work and at play. I loved hanging around those guys. Very fun and exciting times. He has two ranches. One in Hasty Colorado and one in Woodland Park. I love both. I didn’t think I would enjoy the prairie like I do. I totally fell in love with it! I got the coolest photo of a barn owl there on his property. The vast open space, the animals….scorpions, horny toads, tarantulas, snakes, eagles, deer, coyotes, Canadian Geese, and various things….. like a huge reservoir, a train that zooms by a great speeds, two cool houses, lots of space, and the worst part is you can’t drink the water. It sucks.

John got me into Motocross. I even had a custom track on his property. He was sweet to accommodate me. I didn’t like a few things with the track. I was scared of a few jumps so he filled them in for me. Wouldn’t you know that I had the freaking worst wreck yet on that track. I tried to do a jump and did a wheelie instead. I seriously thought I had broke my hip. He was working on the track at the time and didn’t see me wreck, but he heard me and came walking over calmly. I told him I thought I broke my hip and he asked if I could stand up. I told him it might take me a minute. It hurt me so bad that I couldn’t cry. Once I could stand up, he asked me to pull down my pants. He took a look and told me that it was going to hurt like hell. He checked my elbow, which I also thought I broke, but nope! He then said for me to go to the house and take a hot shower and some Advil. Man! did that sucker hurt for a year maybe. John is a great musician, and is putting out a new CD with his band. I wish he would write a song with the mandolin, but I’m not sure if he did.

John’s son Tucker is seriously my second favorite kid in the world. I just love him. A great motocross racer and now instead of racing he will be an EMT on the track. I love Tucker’s friends too. Crazy, and we always had a ton of fun. I never laughed so hard as when I hung out with that bunch. We used to go and chase rabbits on the land around there. Fun! I also worked on some ranches around there. Quite a few jobs around there. He knows lots of the ranchers, since he had helped them in the hospital down there.

Ok, I have to deal with some stuff for my website. I just can’t believe the men in my life. What is wrong with them???

Men, can’t live with them…….pass the beer nuts.

I feel like I’m going to crawl out of my skin. I’m at work and sort of busy, sort of not busy. I am just wanting something to take photos of. I was hoping to be back on a ranch this weekend, but I don’t see that happening. William had asked me to come down, he was going to brand and wanted some more photos, since his girls are in town. I can’t make it though. I HAVE to work tomorrow. I’ve got a busy day.

I wish I could just live my life on a ranch so that way I don’t have to have that constant want inside of me. I crave the space. I loved being on “J” ranch and on William’s ranch. It only fuels my fire though. I can’t get enough of it. I want to breathe that life daily. I am so meant for that life. It has been so elusive to me. WHY?

I guess most ranchers don’t come to Denver for haircuts. We do have a few people that come in that own ranches, but I think they are all married women, and I “like a the dickie”. I just wish dick wouldn’t come with dickie.

I talked to my friend Juan for quite awhile last night. I thought we were going to MMA fights tonight. He has asked me to go down to San Luis to his place next weekend. I think that would be pretty dang fun. I find Juan very interesting. That’s all I’ll say, since he reads my blog pretty regularly it seems. Nice guy, Hispanic, etc. I love those Hispanic men. Ok, I love men in general.

I haven’t heard much from Jeffrey. He is playing war with Army boys in Texas. Mostly shooting guns it sounds like. He was getting a bit bolder last night with his texts. Hmm???

I’m getting ready to do some cool photo stuff at the old Gates Rubber Company. I got a connection today. I have been trying to figure out how to get on the property without getting arrested. I also got some good leads on getting down in the rail yards for some shots of graffiti on the rail cars. I was a great week for my photo work.

My daughter will be going to Texas on Monday. She is so excited! I’m excited for her. Greg is such a great guy and they get along so well. I need to call his mom and talk to her too. I just can’t get off the phone when I call her. She is quite the talker, but very nice and sweet as can be. Shelby has been talking about making some dessert with her for Thanksgiving.

I might write more tonight. I have a client coming in, so I must stop writing. I know it makes you sad, but you’ll get more of me later.

Geez, I post a blog about a guy (Jeffery) and he texts me to tell me what I have wrong in my blog about him. Lordy Jeff, maybe you should just write your own blog about you and I’ll just post it on my popular blog site so you can be somebody????

Jeffrey’s Westcliffe photo

The weekend he took this photo I was on the other side of this mountain range, the Sange de Cristo’s. Very pretty range, and one I could look at all my life if I ever have the pleasure to live in Westcliffe.

I just got off the phone with Jeffrey. I had an inside joke with him this evening about Frijoles and that is why I had to title this blog Frijoles. He corrected me on my previous blog. I guess he doesn’t know fiction when he reads it. Ok, seriously he had to text me that he was in the Army much longer than the Navy….not scoring points in my family there Jeff! Then he added that he was a custom boot maker for longer than he was in the Army. He is a military analyst now. It sounds like a pretty cool job. He is in Texass right now as I type this.

We actually might have a date on Monday night. Shelby will be leaving town for Texass and he will be coming back. That is sort of weird. Jeffrey and I get along pretty well over the phone. He seems really fun, and he loves hunting, so two good things. He even told me communication is the most important thing in a relationship. WOW! An evolved man! He is younger than me which is good, so maybe I can find one that can keep up with me. : )

The other big news, besides Jeffrey being a boot maker is that my daughter got her license today. Crap, now this whole worry about the kid thing hits a whole new level. I don’t worry about her driving, she is an awesome motorist, but it’s all the bad drivers and drunks that might be headed her way. Nobody better crash into my kid!!!! It was a big milestone for all of us involved. My heart is happy and sad all the same. It is so cool to see your kid happy, healthy, and able to live a great life. The killer is that you have to let them grow and be whoever they want to be in life. I love her so much, it is beauty and sadness to see her grow. I’m having anxiety already about when she will leave for college, but driving, this is another stress, that I don’t need but happily signed up for. My baby is getting so big! I love her to the moon and back!

Jeffrey is waiting in his hotel room for this blog, I’m sure he will have more to add. Maybe I should get him to write my first “guest” blog, about what ever is on his mind, besides me anyway.

See you soon Jeff.

I had to give Jeffrey his own post.

He was feeling a bit left out I guess. He wanted to see his name on the big screen and lights. Well, Jeffrey, here you go. You can’t get any more famous now since you officially made to to my blog page and have your very own blog.

I suppose I should get a really nice dinner now, flowers sent to my work, a spa weekend getaway to the Broadmoor. A girl can wish can’t she????

I get along with Jeffrey really well. We also met on Match.com, but haven’t met face to face yet. He is a former Navy guy and now works for the Army teaching soldiers how to use rifles, and how to drive tanks. I’m sure it’s much more scientific than that, but since I have started my progress toward being a blond, it’s all over my head. Actually, it sounds like a pretty cool job.

He travels a lot and I tend to stay pretty busy. I’m sure we will meet face to face pretty soon. His parents live in Westcliffe so I know they are cool, maybe even cooler than him, just because of that fact. : )

I have enjoyed getting to know him. We have been talking for at least a couple for months. I really like that. He understands that I really don’t enjoy calling men, so he has been good at calling me and keeping in touch. Gold star for that gesture.

Are you happy now Jeffrey? Don’t let your head get too big now. Hopefully you won’t get phone calls of people finding my blog and reading about you, and how crazy in love with me you are. Ha!